QUIck facts:

1. Been hanging out with Matt Kuhlman a lot.
2. Been growing a beard.
3. Saw my now 15 year old cousin; she plays the guitar and rides horses and is a conservative who would like to one day become an attorney.
4. Somehow I ran into Cher and Alex in MINNEAPOLIS, MN; they had overslept while hitching on a train and ended up in my hometown; we met and talked for several hours with Grant Hagstrom. We had met at the Hard Times cafe on Cedar I believe it is. It was utterly ridiculous. We were cordial and it became more and more obvious that we would spend our lives discussing politics.

It was rather moving and I enjoyed it. I feel more political minded today.

Another thing: will be judging some debate tournaments; not going to take a jaunt to Winnipeg this week, I don't think.

Not looking forward to the Army. I actually had a small nightmare about it. Just because... It could suck.

15 hours of flying .12 to chicago. 1 to here plus layovers.

drank all night with the NATION OF POLSKA before I was home. with nelly the bulgarian was there...

great friends. my bro is a little depressed and it makes me sad. love my friends and my family. they';re my everyhting
depressed like mazhi.

everyone be happy, OK? I ma back and feeling good.

So I am trying to overcome computer viruses and it is not a pleasant experience. It is allowing me to do most things that I want except play Age of Conan which I just got. That's disappointing.

I generally do not look forward to the rest of the work week but you know what? I kind of do, deep down inside, just because I will see my co-workers and I am going to try to connect with them better and hopefully up my own morale.

You can overcome anything with a little determination and if you just have the right mindset to overcome the situation.

No one can stand in my way. And the weekend is coming, anyways.

I have decided to have a good few days coming up here and no one can take that away.

내 결정이다.

So a lot of stupid stuff happened this weekend. People were out of control. Rooms broken into. Sexual assaults. Fights. I was on duty and one of my guys who is always jacked up just wasn't doing his job. I did not think that on our last day I would have to hold his hand but I guess that is the case.

I just try to do my job by the book. I admit it -- my job is not a passion for me. I just do what is asked of me and do not go much further other than making the basic corrections whenever I see them. It's just too much when you think about it... It feels like I am suddenly responsible for everybody.

I am feeling a little depressed.

I have not had the free time that I desire. I have a suffocating feelings. I kind of just want a lot of this to go away. I guess it is wrong of me on some level. I do not know.

At least Age of Conan is very fun. Other than that I only have shrugs to offer you.

Other than this I do not know that much.

Here's what you got to do, guys: deal with every situation at hand and do not expect to change the world single handedly. Rather, handle yourself. People will change if they want to. If they do not change, it is not up to you to change them. They must make the effort.

Just look to God.

It's Jason's birthday. So we're going to celebrate. I have been practicing my bass tabs.

Age of Conan is downloading. I will be playing on Saturday as I get another cq shift out of the way. it is another seemingly lost weekend. lost due to repetition.

I find it harder to be the most civilperson. I just do not have the energy to carry on pointless conversations with a lot of the people. But the civility is still there. I guess it is just subdued or something like that.

It's raining today.

Everyone walks by the desk and everyone's got comments. So what? It is stupid. I do not have much to say to anybody and I am barely existent. I must come off as dark and brooding.

But just because I am here every other day for either 15 or 24 hours does not mean I should always be captive to your smalltalk. It disgusts me to carry it on.

I bought a direct2drive of the new Conan game. It could be good... Perhaps. I do not know? I read the reviews and it sounds good but more than that it seems like a very fresh game (released May 08) and something that could last me a while. Might be a good hobbie to have. Apparently people save money through these things.

New combat modes and stuff... I just am interested in playing.

Unfortunately the set up file is super huge and is going to take like six days to download because the site is so busy it is only downing to me at like 25kbs.But that;s OK -- I suspect at some point we will hit a nice peak and get it at a much faster rate and if not I can just leave the puter on most of the time.

I feel good these days. Healthy, wealthy, wise. Capable of staying up all night. And stuff. Because that's what I do.

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DROWNING THE LIGHT

So yesterday I was out with the Chinese and a Polock and we sang at the noraebang in waedae... We sang awfully, Kimczak and I, and so everyone just fucked right off pretty early. I was only out to 12:20 and I watched the US take bronze in the 100m and it was disappointing that Jamaica beat us.

Lots of things were disappointing -- talked with a girl I vaguely dig and things were going well. I believe she has an interest in me so I think that I will be able to make something happen.

그리고 난 어제 우수를 봤다. 우리가 얘기 많이 했는데 그 밖에 안 했어. 그냥 태국음식 먹으면서 웃고 우리의 기억이 나누고 우수가 진짜 나랑 다시 하고 싶지않아. 실패.

I would've liked to have stuck around longer. I would have liked life to progress better. But at the end of it... It was nothing.

Lots fo downloading these days.

Lots of internet gaming. Lots of nothing. Lots of nothing at all. Lots of boredom. The world seems like it is permanently the same.

But I guess I don't mind too much.

I am going to try to post here more frequently.

Saturday was eventful -- meeting a nice girl, getting a date; meeting more people; talking all night; not sleeping. Friday was just usual crew with 하종희 and 진용 and just a lot of folks and we didn't do that much.

Today I looked for a fricking shop but I guess taxi drivers here really aren't good with addresses. Usually I know where I am going so it was a pain. I was going to buy some bass stuff.

I discovered the band Drowning The Light. They are so good it is amazing.

I have a lot of ideas lately and I just hope for once they start coming to fruit.

The United States is such a beautiful country because it is a land that we all stole together. America is something that all Americans are guilty of -- it is a crime we perpetrate against each other in the ballot boxes each time we vote, forcing our own interpretation.

It's freedom; it's segregation; it's for the rich and it's for the worker and it's for the Christian and it's for the atheist and it's for anyone who ever bothered to come here and call it 'home.'

It is in such a unique position because it is one of the few lands that has an ideology rightfully ascribed to it. But it is an ideology that no one quite puts their finger on except we envision something grand and encompassing.

All of us take part in shoving ideas down each others throats here.